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Panhandlers

Monday, April 25th, 2011

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They irritate the hell out of me.

Particularly, panhandlers in the guise of collaborators seeking some creative symbiosis until much later in the discussion process (when they’re the one that contacted you).

More particularly, panhandlers in the guise of collaborators seeking some creative symbiosis until much later in the discussion process who change their travels plans so that they don’t swing through your town after all and then try to convince you to travel to where they will be (at a 3-hour minimum drive).

Even more particularly, panhandlers in the guise of collaborators seeking some creative symbiosis until much later in the discussion process who change their travels plans so that they don’t swing through your town after all and then try to convince you to travel to where they will be and then have the audacity to call the fee that they’re suddenly asking from you a “travel expense” (can there possibly be any greater an exercise in contradiction and irreverent hypocrisy?).

And most particularly, panhandlers in the guise of collaborators seeking some creative symbiosis until much later in the discussion process who change their travels plans so that they don’t swing through your town after all and then try to convince you to travel to where they will be and then have the audacity to call the fee that they’re suddenly asking from you a “travel expense”, after having told you during the initial discussion months ago: “As for working with you, throw in some gas money so I can be certain to make the drive regardless of the tennessee bookings I get, and I will be there.”

(Note: I was also kindly informed that I have secretly and subversively (unbeknownst to me?) treated essentially every model that I have shot as some throwaway ragdoll because I didn’t flash cash at them in order to properly honor their uniqueness as a model. Preemptive apologies to all of you for the likely delay, as it will take some time for me to mail all the “I’m sorry” cards I’ll need to now send.)

“I’d do it all again…”

Monday, January 24th, 2011

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I’m happily amassing quite the collection of signed Chris Pureka albums. This past Saturday was a much-needed indulgence, when she swung into town, playing at the Basement.

Swann Song

Chris Pureka - Dryland

The World Is Not Enough

Sunday, October 31st, 2010

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“There’s no point living if you can’t feel alive.”

I miss Freshie. She’s one of a final series of sparkles of wonder that kept me company prior to my recent exodus. Exodus because a long overdue relocation has finally come to fruition. The final chapter in my own strange ’six degrees of Kevin Bacon’ game that I’ve played with the reality I had created for myself, internally and externally. Mostly internally. Precious things needing to be washed away.

A car, a cat, and a catalyst. And I’m here. Home. Hello, Nashville.

Our final photographic endeavor did leave me remembering the things I will miss, though. We’ll see how long it is before I can jedi-mind-trick her this way.

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And then Ariel became a departing, unexpected spark just days before my departure. A casual final dart thrown as the curtain was falling that hit a bullseye and reminded me of the inspiring emotive fuel that can come from clicking with someone on all cylinders in the collaborative department. Why I hadn’t thought of a kitty-girl series prior to the accidental discovery as we were shooting I don’t know…but it’s certainly something I’ll have to devote more concerted effort to in the future.

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Some last-minute, parting luck also ended up activating a shoot that had been discussed 2 years ago, and I’ll share those shortly as well.

And though I’ll be basking in the homebody indulgences of a new place for a while, a specific chunk of that process is already being devoted to the re-ignition of re-harnessed energies…

DC Fetish Ball

Saturday, September 18th, 2010

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Geez, I’m behind. This time there’s substantial reason behind it, though. I’ve also got a nice chunk of gorgeous images of Freshie that we took when she last came to visit me that I’ve been horribly neglectful in sharing. Those will come soon (she knows I already feel bad about my procrastination).

In the meantime, however, I offer you a plug for an delicious event coming up being produced by two friends of mine. It should be a fantastic weekend of festivites. Go check it out!

DCFetishBall.com

Cessation

Wednesday, May 26th, 2010

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Death

Anyone who tells you that they don’t fear death is either disingenuous, deluded, or delirious.

For the second time this month, I’ve become a spectator to the carcasses of a few fallen hatchlings at the base of the stairs up to my apartment. The nests high above in the archway appear perhaps too vulnerable to the elements. I had quietly been a bit bothered that I hadn’t gotten around to taking some pictures of the barely-feathered newborns the last time. I didn’t, however, plan or wish to be witness to the event again…

It is the most fleeting of things, the amalgamation of fired neurons we call life. We take for granted that the entire encapsulation includes the very sentience we perceive it with. The convenient benefits of our evolved brains are the ability to create distractions and the ability to assign emotional value to things we can whimsically imagine for ourselves. They are the blinders that keep our eyes away from inevitability and focused on construct…and considering our species’ fixation with emotion and value placement, it’s perhaps a psycho-biological prerequisite.

It’s not the loss of the sensory stimulus that’s so much the issue…I suspect that is the primary thought process we all go through when mulling the questions. It’s the process of losing the very system that processes the stimuli. It’s not the loss of everything you’ve placed value upon; it’s the loss of the ability to place value.

Quiet, stark reality. A testament to brevity.

May you find many vivid intoxications for as long as you will need them.

History

Wednesday, May 19th, 2010

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Considering my penchant for nostalgia, it would appear this sort of thing is long overdue. I’d been finding myself going back into my external hard drive, digging up images from years ago and indulging in a bit of “fresh set of eyes” viewing of stuff to see how my current level matches up with the results I got back then. It became a fun distraction, editing some older images with the proficiencies I now have with PS…and it reminded me of the short ‘About Me’ section I used to have on my old website, where I offered up a short, verbal recounting of my photography experiences. In it, I’d also shown an image from my second shoot and, upon reflecting back to that page, it occurred to me that I should combine all these elements and systematically go back to the very beginning (1.18.05) and set up a gallery that creates a timeline, with one image take from each shoot in chronological order.

So I’ve officially created the History Gallery, replacing the old ‘Retro Quads’ gallery since this new one will essentially be a broader display of the same imagery. Currently only 2005 and part one of 2006 are up, but I’ll be updating them over time as I re-edit and re-create the pictures from my old shots.

Seeing In The Dark

Friday, May 7th, 2010

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 How I Learned To See In The Dark

I was fortunate enough to be able to again catch Chris Pureka, this time on a spring east-coast tour for her new album. Sometimes I wish I had the talent to be able to condense my emotional catharses into an aural medium. She has an unassuming, honest energy to her (you can tell when she’s just speaking plainly) that actually reinforces the heavy, melancholy vocals she pours forth.

This video of the new album’s title track Wrecking Ball is from a show only 4 days after the one I saw her in. Enjoy.

Burning Bridges

Saturday, October 31st, 2009

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 “…these memories are talking and talking and I’ll do anything to shut ‘em up. I’ve got the pillow over my head but they won’t stop no, no they won’t stop…”

“This is a story of burning bridges and allowing time to pass.

This is a story of forgiveness and breaking things in my hands…

Interim

Wednesday, July 8th, 2009

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It’s still 8 days before I’ll be heading to wedding (rehearsal) #2 of the summer.

However, after about a week of telling myself I’d get around to purchasing it, I succumbed this evening to temptation and meandered onto Google videos to find this. Consequently, I shall have the entire new album before tomorrow is over.

V5+ Dyno

Saturday, April 4th, 2009

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In rock-climbing, a dynamic movement is one where, in order to get to the next hold, your entire body leaves the surface of the wall (I know, this is a weird way to introduce the topic without preface).

I nailed one last night.

And, it occured to me a little later on just how symbolic a culmination it was for me on so many different fronts recently.