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Gold Dust

Thursday, April 29th, 2010

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I wasn’t even exactly sure about how I would title this blog and then Tori Amos’ Gold Dust popped up on my random playlist…an interesting duality of a title.

The main part of this entry is for Pia, Mikaela, and Isabella. I know Pia through work and she was kind enough to invite me over on a gloriously warm April day for some picture-taking with her and her two girls. You may as well have had Cyndi Lauper’s Girls Just Want To Have Fun playing on repeat in the background as theme music. It was actually pretty hilarious. Like, creating the idea of an ‘alien zombie cow’ hilarious. It was a vibrant experience.

The other thought in my head recently I’m actually including here because of how polarizing it is in comparison to imagery so emblematic of youth.

A close friend of mine had her father pass away last week. It would be cliche to go on about what emotional impact that can play on anyone who is normally a bundle of laughs, but there are some events in life that leave a concerned friend at a loss for adequately expressive words of comfort. I was surprised, though, at how it gave me pause as well. Perhaps it’s due to the fact that death hasn’t historically crossed my path very closely. Not to say it necessarily makes for any naivete to not live so close to it often, but my philosophical and psychological views can tend to bring the stark reality more sharply into focus. I’m convinced that anyone who tells you that they do not fear death is either distracted, delusional, or drugged. It’s not the loss of the world that’s the issue. It’s the loss of the perceptual mechanism that lets us render it into reality. The freak self-reflective sentience we ephemerally own as a species evaporating and, along with it, the entirety of ourselves.

Which is the type of thing that (it seems I’m reduced to cliche after all…) puts the wonder of youth in such a brilliant light; that unspoken inner feeling that there’s still a figurative ‘new car smell’ in life and that there are plenty and plenty of miles to burn.

May we all get to watch things sparkle for as long as they (and we) possibly can.

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Duality

Friday, April 16th, 2010

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It’s an odd social quirk that tends to divide the construct of traditional family unit from the innate human aspects of sexuality that bring it forth. It’s as if the status of parenthood partially amputates someone’s full-bodied qualification for the ’sexiness box’. Perhaps the unrelenting vigilance to be wary of anything that would even topically intertwine aspects of sexuality and children (apart from that whole birthing process, however…) tends to create a divide in our heads that feels awkward finding the two in any way close together.

The downside of that, however, is that the process of becoming a parent seems to nullify a part of that freedom to revel in the whimsical and playful self-esteem and self-enjoyment wrought from being comfortable in one’s own ’sexiness box’ (not that the actual responsibilities of parenting themselves do not affect it already).

So, it’s nice to find a young couple that can be part of a family unit without losing the degrees of passion that made them a family unit in the first place.  I found it a refreshing treat to be able to shoot images that were passionate and emotive with Liz & Dustin and then an hour later, with them, romp outside in youthful silliness with their sons Gavin & Eliot.

It turned out to be another wonderful way to welcome in the deep spring.

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Ignition

Monday, April 5th, 2010

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For as quiet as March was, April is already shaping up to be ridiculously busy, in part due to a sudden surge of shooting. Oddly, it’s been entirely co-worker based; the blooming spring is serving to act as the perfect springboard for outdoor shooting. I think I’m already nearing my yearly quota for lying in grass, though…

The first session of the medley was really just an impromptu get-together with Laura. She’s done photography schoolwork and we’ve talked for quite some time about just getting together to chat and find scenic somethings to capture, but she was particularly interested this time in getting to be the subject of images as opposed to being the one who’s always taking them.

This meant I got to play with the cherry blossom trees around my place again…in addition to other stuff we ad-libbed.

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