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Cessation

Wednesday, May 26th, 2010

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Death

Anyone who tells you that they don’t fear death is either disingenuous, deluded, or delirious.

For the second time this month, I’ve become a spectator to the carcasses of a few fallen hatchlings at the base of the stairs up to my apartment. The nests high above in the archway appear perhaps too vulnerable to the elements. I had quietly been a bit bothered that I hadn’t gotten around to taking some pictures of the barely-feathered newborns the last time. I didn’t, however, plan or wish to be witness to the event again…

It is the most fleeting of things, the amalgamation of fired neurons we call life. We take for granted that the entire encapsulation includes the very sentience we perceive it with. The convenient benefits of our evolved brains are the ability to create distractions and the ability to assign emotional value to things we can whimsically imagine for ourselves. They are the blinders that keep our eyes away from inevitability and focused on construct…and considering our species’ fixation with emotion and value placement, it’s perhaps a psycho-biological prerequisite.

It’s not the loss of the sensory stimulus that’s so much the issue…I suspect that is the primary thought process we all go through when mulling the questions. It’s the process of losing the very system that processes the stimuli. It’s not the loss of everything you’ve placed value upon; it’s the loss of the ability to place value.

Quiet, stark reality. A testament to brevity.

May you find many vivid intoxications for as long as you will need them.

History

Wednesday, May 19th, 2010

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Considering my penchant for nostalgia, it would appear this sort of thing is long overdue. I’d been finding myself going back into my external hard drive, digging up images from years ago and indulging in a bit of “fresh set of eyes” viewing of stuff to see how my current level matches up with the results I got back then. It became a fun distraction, editing some older images with the proficiencies I now have with PS…and it reminded me of the short ‘About Me’ section I used to have on my old website, where I offered up a short, verbal recounting of my photography experiences. In it, I’d also shown an image from my second shoot and, upon reflecting back to that page, it occurred to me that I should combine all these elements and systematically go back to the very beginning (1.18.05) and set up a gallery that creates a timeline, with one image take from each shoot in chronological order.

So I’ve officially created the History Gallery, replacing the old ‘Retro Quads’ gallery since this new one will essentially be a broader display of the same imagery. Currently only 2005 and part one of 2006 are up, but I’ll be updating them over time as I re-edit and re-create the pictures from my old shots.

Seeing In The Dark

Friday, May 7th, 2010

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 How I Learned To See In The Dark

I was fortunate enough to be able to again catch Chris Pureka, this time on a spring east-coast tour for her new album. Sometimes I wish I had the talent to be able to condense my emotional catharses into an aural medium. She has an unassuming, honest energy to her (you can tell when she’s just speaking plainly) that actually reinforces the heavy, melancholy vocals she pours forth.

This video of the new album’s title track Wrecking Ball is from a show only 4 days after the one I saw her in. Enjoy.

Kismet

Wednesday, May 5th, 2010

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I’ve actually been a rather reserved person most of my life, particularly socially. It was a progression of habit and eventual familiarity with the process itself that put me in a place where interacting with models in scant-to-no clothing didn’t feel partially awkward for me even when being thoroughly focused on the shoot theme. Now, it’s something I think I’ve come to take for granted. My roommate of many years has lived with me throughout this evolution and doesn’t bat an eyelash at random nudity in the apartment. Being around people who are comfortable in that sort of environment may as well be second nature to me now.

It does manage to surprise me, then, when two people entirely new to modeling are able to perform a flawless transition into that ‘photo shoot zone’ where the mood is completely comfortable and fluid…despite their state of (un)dress.

Amber and I had been talking for months about getting around to shooting. It became one of those deals where you’ve got the firecracker rocket stuck into the ground and you’ve got the lighter in your pocket…and days still go by without getting the fuse lit. I’d spoken with Andrew less and we hadn’t even formally discussed shots with him. Had he not ended up being free from other obligations that day I wouldn’t have ended up being able to incorporate him at all in the actual shoot. But, with a little good fortune and the totally stress-free environment (granted, being around people you’re familiar with and a few bottles of wine can help with that…), we managed to crank out some rather fantastic stuff.

Among many other spectacular things, it was another prodding reminder of how much I do enjoy shooting couples.

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